If I break it down by the numbers that is my loss so far. Five kids, two gone. Forty percent of my posterity gone.
I have always been a numbers person and in the generations of time this is the lasting effect. No matter how I try to intellectually, spiritually, or emotionally justify Jeff's death, this is the number that keeps boiling up to the surface.
I am truly grateful for all of the prayers, thoughts, flowers, favors, cards and rides for Joe sent my way. I wish I wasn't the type of person who has to do the math.